Like most blogs I have found about cancer (including my own), this one seems to be made both for the author herself, as it is therapeutic in some ways, as well as for others (family, friends, whoever else might happen upon her blog) to keep them up to date and inform them on everything cancer that she knows about from her own personal experience.
She really likes to set the scenes in some of her posts (there are only 40(?) on there) starting posts like: "Two years ago I was in the car on the way to spend some money in the post-Christmas sales when I received a call from my oncologist..." which is nice because it makes it more personal but also puts a little humorous twist on a rather grim topic. I tend to do that as well--a very "Now picture this...!" moment.
After all, the top of her blog promises the reader with story-like posts:
This is a a strange story for me to write. It will at times be a sad story, in many ways it will be happy and perhaps even funny. It will be an adventure that entails anxiety, flirting with danger, fortitude in the face of adversity and many attempts to look on the bright side. There will also no doubt be moments of anguish and despair, and a lot of uncertainty. It's a story that will hopefully be cathartic for me, but also interesting and perhaps informative or even entertaining for other.She has used words like "gobbledygook" to explain what comes out of a doctor's mouth instead of a simple answer and also recognizes that we too, as cancer patients and or survivors give a sort of gobbledygook answer to our friends and family that don't understand doctor-speak either. For them, she tries her best to explain in simpler terms the disease and the treatment process.
Then she eventually talks about hair loss. In 2010, the posts are titled like "Hair today, gone tomorrow" sort of brushing off (not the best phrasing here woops) a problem that many cancer patients have to go through but 2011 rolls around and her posts sounds more like "I want my hair back." explaining how she is struggling to cope with the hair loss and hair regrowth as her wedding date nears. I so appreciate that she is able to show the very real emotions that come with these side effects and life after treatment.
In the post "I'm over it" she describes how she feels as "crappy" and goes through a list of things she does that should prove that she should be healthy asking many "why me and not them?" sorts of questions. And then she loops back through her emotions again saying:
...I'm really just over it. It's really hard to keep pumping your body full of poisons that make you feel really crappy and tired, without a guarantee of being well at the end.But even through all of the disappointment she goes on to say that she's just go to "keep focusing on the good things" and ends her post thanking everyone that has been there for her (mainly friends and family) and I think that this really gets across the truth behind cancer really having its ups and downs in coping and crashing.
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